Dear Yan,

Maybe you find it surprising for I created this website specially to talk to you but I just don't know what else to do. I don't feel to write a mail to you. I can't think what to write. Maybe, because I am a hard to be believed guy and not just you, I don't blame you... even people who is close to me don't believe me. But anyway, here, I want to express everything and let it be here for a few months before it die off. Just like a memory of me inside your head that will fade off soon. Besides saying sorry and goodbye, I also want say this for the last time just to make myself cheer up a little and let things go. I love you. I want to hold you but I can't. I want to be by your side but distance fails me. I maybe not a good emotion controller but I believe that is what makes me to be caring and willing to do anything to achieve love. I lost love, I lost my job as monitor, I lost my chance to get higher points to go in to university, and I lost my mood and feel to study. I am very sad about it because it all happened so fast and I can't get use to it. I feel very useless. If only I can fly, then I would go up to the sky and shout. If I can, I would just want to die because electrocuted. Sounds ridiculous right? Yeah, I can see that but do you know why I can make people laugh and smile online? Because I am happy enough and be loved enough to make others happy but in real life, I maybe cannot do it. But still, I find that I can make some people laugh because I am a little bit childish at times. 

Anyway, you heart belongs to someone else already and I am not in position to ask anything. I just hope you will be as happy as always... bless you.... and love you... Happy Valentines...

Written by someone you know from the Net with God's grace,

Alex....